Thursday, December 02, 2010

Enough...


Can't think of a way to write the words. We are in a hospital nightmare holding pattern. Everything that can go wrong has already and there are no more answers...only patience and prayers. Roger has decided he has had enough and refuses treatment. He has been through hell these last few weeks much of which I haven't spoken about. Last week during dialysis his blood pressure nearly bottomed out and he went into cardiac arrest- they had to shock him to bring him back. He has made it clear he wants no more of that and so the legalities have been put into place so his wishes are followed. His kidney Dr. is a kind man who spoke with him this morning and Roger made it clear that he doesn't want any further treatment.
We are all devastated and in pain but if you could see what has happened to him in these last 2 weeks you would understand why he's had enough.
I thank all of you for your prayers and concern. I'll be back when I can. My heart is broken.

14 comments:

Angie said...

Oh Thea, as I sit here with tears streaking my face, I am so filled with pain for you and yours, and yet I can understand your husband's wishes. I am sending prayers for you and warmest of quilted hugs to wrap you in and to wipe your tears on. You are not alone.

Libby said...

Oh Dee - my heart is breaking for you. I wish I could do more than send hugs across the internet, but I keep you and Roger in my thoughts.

Gerrie said...

Sending hugs, prayers and much love as you go through this. XXOO

Kay said...

Dear Dee, please know my thoughts and prayers are with you too.

Grazia said...

My dear Dee, you and Roger are in my prayers and in my heart...
Grazia

Katie said...

As you walk the path only you can walk, know there are many with you, even if some of us are miles away, we are by your side.

Joanne S said...

My heart aches for you, dear friend. And for Roger. May he find peace in this decision.

Cathy said...

I will keep you close in thought, I am so sorry.

Diane said...

you and your family are in my prayers.

Cootie Bug Connie said...

Dee, Sending you cyber hugs ... what a painful time in your life. I'm so sorry to read what you and Roger are going through.
Connie

j/n said...

I am thinking of you, Dee, and crying as I write to you...
j/n

Janet said...

Dee, this is just so sad but I also understand Roger's decision. I think I would feel the same way if I was in his predicament. I continue to keep you both in my thoughts each day. Sending lots of hugs and strength to you.

Terry said...

Can't tell you how sorry I am that you and your family are going through this. Such suffering. No one should have to endure it. Peace to Roger. I hope I would have that kind of courage.

Sarah Ann Smith said...

My heart breaks for you both, and for all your family. May you all...in time...find peace. Hugs, Sarah