Monday, October 25, 2010

Moving along...


Thanks for the beautiful messages I received from various people. Your kindness is a gift beyond measure.
I have been to see Roger now that he is back at Huntington in the ICU. He is intubated and in a light sleep. Today, they are going to do a CAT-scan and various other tests to see where he stands. I mentioned in an e-mail to a friend that when I hold his hand it seems that he is becoming smaller and farther away. That's how it feels. If they can turn this one around it really will qualify as a miracle to me.
I'm throwing myself into several projects that have languished over the last months. Things that need attention but I just keep walking past them unable to concentrate. It feels good to get lost in a project right now. Keeps me from thinking about what may come. I spent the weekend returning calls and replying to e-mails from very good friends and family. By last evening I felt all in. Last week the newlyweds picked me up and took me to their house for dinner. It was so nice to see them so happy and to be out of the routine. They are headed out to St. Thomas for their honeymoon. I think James & Dani worried about going with his Dad in this shape but we have told them to go on and enjoy their time together. St. Thomas is not so far away and they deserve a honeymoon. This was the only time they could both get off.
I'm off to do some errands and stop in to see Roger. Talk to you soon.

12 comments:

Melody Johnson said...

I am holding your hand with love.

Libby said...

Keep strong - I'm out here pulling for you and Roger *s*

diane said...

I know exactly what you mean about holding someone's hand and it feels like they're getting smaller and further away. I think it's because the one we love is ill and we are feeling so helpless because there's nothing we can do when push comes to shove.

You and your family are all in my prayers. I hope you get your miracle.

God bless.

Diane

Gerrie said...

Hang in their, dear one. We are all out here, wishing we could hold your hand through this.

Mary Johnson said...

I've not been doing much blog reading over the last few months. I'm so sorry to read about Roger and you both are in my thoughts and prayers.

sophie said...

Miracles really do happen. I watched my father come back from that place when the doctors thought there was no chance.

You may not even be aware of how much stress your own body is under right now. Please take good care of yourself, so you can continue to be there for Roger. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.

Janet said...

I hope the CAT scan gave some answers. Not knowing is always so difficult.

Hang in there and remember we're all here holding your hand, giving you a big hug, and sending you lots of good thoughts.

Rian said...

Hangeth in there and know that we are right there in your back pocket. And that we really, truly, care.

Barbara C said...

I'm sorry to hear that Roger has had to go back to the hospital. You're in my prayers, take good care.

Joanne S said...

Continuing to ask for protection and comfort for you and Roger. Your dinner with the newly weds made me smile. Take care of yourself.

Kay said...

Oh, dear, I thought things were going better! I'm so sorry DEe. I'll send all the good thoughts I can. I can barely imagine how hard this must be.

Cathy said...

Oh Dee,
No words for you ...sad for you.Just remember to breathe. This is a process none of us can know the outcome. One day at a time... thinking of you and offering you both up in prayer.
Cathy B
Birmingham